About the Book
Jason Banning is a wreck. His leg’s been blown to hell in Afghanistan, his boyfriend just left him and took the dog, and now he’s back in his hometown of Pinehurst, Washington, a place that holds nothing but wretched memories…and Nathan Tull. Nathan Tull, whose life Jason ruined. Nathan Tull, who will never believe Jason did what he did for a greater good. Nathan Tull, whose reverend father runs the gay conversion therapy camp that Jason once sought to bring down—at any cost.
Nathan Tull is trying to live a quiet life. Four years ago, when Nate was a prospective student visiting UW, his world collapsed when senior Jason Banning slept with him, filmed it, and put the footage online. A painful public outing and a crisis of faith later, Nate has finally begun to heal. Cured of the “phantoms” that plagued him for years, he now has a girlfriend, a counselor job at his dad’s camp, and the constant, loving support of his father.
But when he learns Jason is back in town, his carefully constructed identity begins to crumble. As desperate to reconcile his love for God with his attraction to men as Jason is to make sense of the damage he’s done, Nate finds himself walking a dangerous line. On one side lies the righteous life he committed himself to in the wake of his public humiliation. On the other is the sin he committed with Jason Banning, and the phantoms that won’t let him be. But is there a path that can bridge those two worlds—where his faith and his identity as a gay man aren’t mutually exclusive?
And can he walk that path with the man who betrayed him?
The Finer Details
Narrative Arc: Standalone
Publication Date: January 16, 2018
Cover Artist: Ana J. Phoenix
Length: Novel, 269 e-book pages
POV: 3rd person
Age Range(s): 22 to 25, 26 to 29
Genre(s): Contemporary, New Adult
Tropes and Tags: abusive elements, emotional agony, enemies to lovers, scars — psychological, sexual identity awakening, closeted, redemption, virgin, return to hometown
Settings & Locales: Pinehurst, WA
Trigger Warnings: Fundamentalist Christians, Conversion Therapy Camp, Suicide Attempts
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